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Staring at my bed reminding myself two days ago I was the one breaking down on my bed but now she's the one facing reality, knowing how it feels like to have someone/something taken away from her. 

I'm just really scared, as much as I want to deny it I can't. Once might be a coincidence, twice maybe yet another coincidence but what if it happens the third time? 

All the questioning and doubts came right in & right now I really wish I could still believe that dreams are just dreams. 

God as I continue to seek you for an answer, I pray that I'll get through this with you. Still believing everything happens for a reason & you're the one holding it all, planning the best for us. 

I don't know why but I'm just sorry. Xx