n o s o u l

entered a soulless train after parting with your friends, slowly letting everything sink in & you realised that you're actually really empty on the inside. 

upon leaving that soulless train, you find yourself taking the longest walking route home.

it sank deep in that you’re portraying yourself to be happy, to be the lively amongst others. with the “considerate heart” of not wanting other to worry for you. hiding behind that sweet smile of yours, is a deep scar in your heart. 

after all, you’re still hanging on to that tiny hope that maybe one day that sweet smile would be genuine, that deep scar will never be seen by anyone. the partial fear of being revealed of how dark your soul became and how broken you are on the inside. 

you tell yourself that you’ll be okay at the end of it and somehow brainwashing yourself to be happy although you aren’t. the tinge of sadness remains but its covered up with lots of smiles and laughers.

one day at a time you say. however, each day is super tiring and at times you take a few days off just to recuperate though its a never ending cycle. 

you just got to survive and good job you are surviving.